Note: Sorry for grammatical errors. My mind is on vacation mode.
I FINALLY PASSED FIRST YEAR!!!!!
YEAH!!!! BOOM BABY!!!! A year full of emotional eating, especially almost weekly fix of ice cream, emotional and grade roller coaster and gaining 5 kgs. I just can’t express how happy I am today. I thought this moment would never come. I really thought this will not happen. I had a dream fews days before the promotion board and our final exam in Anatomy. The batch is in chaos because of the promotion. I suddenly feel anxious, thinking that I might not make it.
The promotion board is scheduled yesterday. But for unknown reason, it was moved today. I’m really restless since yesterday and keep praying that I lift my worries to Him and trust Him. He blessed me with this gift. I really owe this to the big GUY up there. I’m beyond grateful.
I was hesitant before entering med school, I’m not confident with myself. My mother said that I should take this opportunity. Not all can go to med school. She said that if ever I didn’t make it, it is not meant for me. If I’m promoted, God is leading me there.
My batch mates are almost all are smart, talented, and hardworking people. Many of them are scholars. Many are also aspiring to be one. So their grades also reflect. That’s why we have a gap with them and the bottom (including me). I can’t help to compare myself. This really gradually decrease my self-esteem. My motto was “Compete with yourself”. There are moments that I just can’t deal and frustrations are building up and just want to walk away. I came to a point that I pity myself. But after sometime, I realised that I just have to do my best and lift everything to Him.
Then, this came. I feel blessed.
I’m hoping that this will serve as an inspiration and will keep me forward next school year, that I will do my best and He will do the rest.